veli tired

yesterday i was watching many videos on happiness. it made me cry. happy people make me cry, sad people also make me cry. my favourite kind of happiness tho, is that of pure unadulterated joy. like that in a child. i think it is very touching. im sure as adults/teens we experience it too, but its definitely much rarer. i wonder why. i was just thinking back to the last time i experienced pure unadulterated joy at this point in my life but i could not remember. but i remember quite a few from the time as a child. i wonder what i must do to experience pure unadulterated joy again. must it be something i have to possess - like the world's most expensive car, 10 billion dollars, or the heart of orlando bloom? or something i have to achieve for myself with sheer hard work; the sweet aftertaste of labour? like climbing everest, or graduating first from a place like harvard? or something else? im pretty much at a loss as to how to set about experiencing it.

i used google to find out "how to experience pure unadulterated joy" and the main few results suggested

1) going to the Thai Elephant Conservation Centre in Chiang Mai (courtesy tripadvisor for this one)

2) Singing

3) watching/listening to Rossini's Last Opera



then i came across this which was slightly more helpful:

"as adults we are often ill-equipped to handle the harsh realities of life. As we wade through our many experiences, we accumulate baggage, build up noise, harbor regrets and resentments, develop anxieties, and more.

Now whether children are truly happier than adults is another question...In their world, they deal with problems we have long forgotten."


if this is true, then it must be quite a sad conclusion to make, that the way to experience pure unadulterated joy again is to forget.